Do You know?

Do you know when I say, that's fine

       It's really not


Do you know when I say, please, that's enough

       I need you to stop and listen to my words


Do you know that I don't want to argue with you
  
      When I do it's because I am exploding with frustration


Do you know that when I do explode at you

        I spend days apologizing to you in my head


Do you know when I say, I've had enough

      I'm falling apart inside

Do you know when you don't share in my excitement
 
      I feel guilty for being happy


Do you know that I hide things from you

      It's easier to hide than to hear your disapproval 


Do you know I long to have the relationship with you that I see others have

       I feel so alone


Do you know that I don't understand why you are so excited about the accomplishments of others

       It's like mine are never enough for you


Do you know when you repeatedly tell stories of mistakes I made in the past
   
       Inside, I break a little each time


Do you know that each time you're late

      I feel as if I'm not your priority


Do you know when you laugh at my reactions and responses

      It's tells me that you don't value me or my thoughts


Do you know why I don't ask you for help

      You think your way is the only way and I'm wrong if I don't agree


Do you know that we don't always have to agree

       I still respect you and your opinion
      

Do you know that I want to fix things
  
     I just don't know how